Tennis Match

A lot of times we are very unsure of what we want. There is always this constant battle between your heart and your mind. Your mind is always telling you what to do in a more logical sense and tells you whats best for you. But your heart always desires the opposite because your feelings pull you towards them. Your mouth says one thing and your heart feels something else. It's a constant tennis match back and forth and a lot of times you feel like your going crazy because you really can't decide between the two. I know a lot of times people go through these things especially when it relates to relationships. I can't help with any advice to make your decision because I haven't figured out the answer myself. And again these are the types of situations where you are the only one who will know what's best. The only thing I can say is that the only thing that would help is the person who is involved with your decision making. Communication is vital when it comes to feelings and choices. If you can somehow get the other person involved and communicate, explain your true feelings and choices and they will give you their honest feelings too, that would definitely help in your decision or at least come to some sort of compromise or absolution. You can only hope, that things will work out the way they're supposed to and just remember though.. at the end of the day.. everything happens for a reason. So again, don't go emo and beat yourself up if it doesn't work the way you want it to. Just move on and find a new desire.

Movie Review : Ninja Assassin

So I watched Ninja Assassin yesturday for the first time. I know this movie has been out for awhile now but I never got a chance to see it. I heard all this talk about how action packed and brutal it is so it really had me interested in seeing the movie.

The movie is basically about an orphan who was raised to become a ninja assassin. He then realizes that killing people wasn't his thing and turned his back against his clan. He then becomes a target and starts fighting against the clan of ninja assassins. I'm not going to get too much into the story as I don't want to spoil it for anyone.

The movie is so graphic. Definitely one of the most graphic action movies I have ever seen. Everytime I thought the action scene was going to end, it only kept going. The storyline is your basic type that includes action, betrayal, love etc. There were two asian guys from the fast and furious series and boy their acting was horrible. I wasn't very impressed with the acting skills in this movie but the action was intense. It only continued to get more and more graphic.

I also started to realize why people always say the power of love is unmatched by anything else. Now your probably sitting there like what is he talking about, this movie isn't a romantic one. True, but haven't you ever noticed how whenever the hero is dying or in pain. All it always takes is that sentimental moment with his lover, and a kiss or tear drop. From there the man turns like super sayain (if you don't watch dragon ball z, it basically means like turning into super form) and he wakes up and starts kicking ass again. Hahaha it always happens like that. Damn I hope next time I'm in pain there will be a girl ready to kiss me in the rain and with a piano'd theme music playing in the backround to revive me. lol

Anyways, if you like action movies especially for the action scenes and not the story, this is definitely a must watch. I would only assume the main consumer market that was targeted for this movie is definitely men lol.

My Rating:
4/5 Stars
+ Action-packed!
+ Very uncensored graphic combat
+ Creative action scenes
- Poor acting
- Basic storyline

No More Zoom Zoom

So I'm sure most of you already know that I recently had my license suspended. I have tried to go to the offense court to have it resolved as it was not my fault to why it was suspended. Just to recap real quick, I was charged with a speeding ticket driving on the DVP. It was a 106 km/hr in a 90 zone. Nothing too crazy but on the ticket, the officer wrote my postal code wrong. I was told and assumed that once an officer makes a mistake on your ticket, that it should be thrown out. That however was not the case when I had filed it for court. They told me it doesn't matter and I should wait for the court notice to come in the mail within the next 6 months. As time went by, nothing showed up regarding it. The Chinese new year weekend, I was driving to work and following all traffic laws then suddenly I see flashing lights in my rear view. The officer asks me my name and asks if I was aware that my license was suspended. I said no I was completely unaware of this. He stated that it was for unpaid fines. I said there aren't any unpaid fines I'm aware of. He took my license and advised me to go to the ministry of transportation for more information. He then advised me to park my car near by or have it towed. I obviously parked it.

I went to the ministry a couple days ago and boy, was it packed. When it came to my turn after waiting 1.5 hours. I explained my situation. The lady said okay, you have two options then. You either pay the fine (which is nothing, $85 for speeding and $150 to get my license back) or you can reopen your file for court but if you do that, your license will be suspended until your court date which could be 6 months from now. I was like, might as well pay for the fine, but then I realize that if I pay for the fine, means that I would be pleading guilty which will result to another increase on my already sky high insurance. I told her I'd have to think before I made my decision.

I have spoken to a lot of my older siblings and friends to figure out the best course of action and obviously everyone has told me to just go to court. So now I won't be driving for at least 6 months which sucks but what can I do right. It also had made me realize how much money I've wasted on this car which I could have saved up this whole year. I am spending at least $800-$1000 a month just on the car which I barely use because since I started work at Eaton Center, I've been riding the rocket to work cause parking is insane. ($25 a day)

I have told myself that I should just try selling the car now and grind for a year or two and save up money because obviously 10 grand a year is a lot of money that can be used for better investment purposes. Don't get me wrong, a car is definitely convenient and makes life much easier but if I can manage to hold off on it for another year or two, I think the money I would be saving would benefit me more in the long run. So no more zoom zoom for me.

FFXIII

I know your all going to think I'm a loser but I'm dying of anticipation for this game to be released here in North America. I love video games and I've been a big fan of the series for awhile ... and I guess that does make me a nerd... oh well. This is definitely one of the reasons why I even bought the PS3. I've always been very impressed with Japanese video games because they are so talented at what they do. The graphics continue to amaze me every year and the storyline, characters and environments are so creatively done.

I rather see things like this in subtitles cause they always sound weird when its translated into English and a lot of the times the translation isn't accurate. Plus on the beneficial side, since I don't do much reading at all, this is my time to shine lol. Most of you probably won't care for this but too bad, lol I like it.

Missing In Action

My next goal is to move to this beautiful city. It has so much beautiful mountains and ocean water. The city seems bigger then Toronto as well. I don't want to live in Toronto my whole life. I want to experience a new lifestyle and learn from new experiences. So this is the plan. Advance and expand my options.

Partners In Crime

Whenever your in a bad situation. There are always a select few of your friends who will pick yu up and put a smile back on your face. They will do everything they can that will make you happy again. Those are the people you should devote your time and energy to because they deserve it more then others. The people who only bring you down more or don't bother to make any sacrifices for you in your time of need aren't the people you should bother to care for. Know who's real from who's not. Give attention to those who deserve it. And let go the ones who will only bring you down.

My Life's Theme Song

"Making your mark on the world is hard.
If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it's not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won't. It's whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere."

- Barack Obama

Shorty Wanna Be A Thug

We live in a society today which promotes a lot of violence and illegal businesses and it's unfortunate because it makes us into something we think we want to be but don't realize that there is more then meets the eye. This post is mainly targeted towards my male companions. Growing up in regent park, I had to live and learn from my peers who were a lot of times trouble makers and gang related. I cannot say that I haven't been a bad boy either. I have done quite a number of things in my teenage years that my parents would not be proud of and neither am I.

I have made a lot of unnecessary enemies over nonsense as a teen and developed a lot of bad habits which I haven't completely vanquished just yet. I have gotten into quite a number of fights, done quite a few different drugs (not anything crazy though, just the basics) and sold them as well. Today however I am proud to say that it has been a very long time since I have done any of that and I don't plan to go back. But today's youth I notice are doing these types of things at a much younger age and a lot of times, they end up on the news either dead or in jail.

Is it worth it? Don't get me wrong, certain things we cannot avoid and at the time it seemed cool and fun. It was an experience and even though it was bad, I probably wouldn't have learned from my mistakes and become the person I am today. TV and music encourage our youth to believe that being gangster is cool and the things that correlate to being a gangster.

What are the benefits of being a gangster? (or a bad boy w.e. you would like to call it). I guess being intimidating for a boy is a plus. Being popular amongst your peers and especially girls. Selling drugs is a huge profit margin. With regards to selling drugs I'll touch back on next time in a different post. Starting trouble at a young age isn't that bad because you can't really get in much trouble. But ask yourself.. are there more pro's then cons? or is it vice versa.

You become this bad boy on your block and you make enemies based on turf and or gangs. You get into fights and once one fight has started.. many will come for more based on revenge. You could get into a fight which you become paralyzed or even die. Or even get arrested over nonsense and get a criminal record which will haunt you for life And you can even end up in jail and let me tell you.. that is the last place you want to go. Any smart person will tell you that. Or even worse.. you beat up someone's brother, or cousin etc. They come back and kill one of your family member because of your doing. Is that worth it? Yeah you can easily say that you will go back and kill one of theirs but does it bring your family back? Do you really think you can continue living knowing that you are the main cause of a family or friend's death? Nothing is going to bring them back.

In life we make a lot of friends just by a simple introduction and a lot of times making new friends come with benefits as they can help you with a lot of things. However when you always try to act hard and stare people down, only causes them to hate you for no reason without even getting to know you and only cause situations that aren't worth your time. Take for example you are at a bar and you randomly start talking to the guy beside you about his thoughts on a hockey game. You make a few comments and laugh about it. And you end the night. While another guy stares down the guy at the bar and acts all hard like he wants to knock someone out. As the night ends and everyone leaves. Say if the first guy gets into some trouble outside with a random guy on the street. There is a much higher chance that the guy who he was being friendly to, will aid him in his fight. Versus the guy who acted all hard, chances are the guy from the bar will jump in to help kick his ass. Obviously things don't always turn out that way but you get where I'm going with this.

Being a gangster is a status which can only be lived for so long before something really bad happens that we will regret. It's real easy for these rappers to play a gangster because they are behind a camera with police and security around them all day and they are making loads of money which have nothing to do with being a real gangster at all. The point is at the end of the day, you could go much further in life by being more friendlier to people then being all hard and acting as though you run this town. We are men and we all strive for power and it feels good when we have that power. But isn't there a better way of obtaining power? If I could choose, I would rather be a business professional owning a business and have the cops work for me rather then trying to arrest me and living a life of a person who must always look over their shoulder.

And honestly, if you want to impress people with your status.. I am sure most people are more impressed with a successful person who has earned thousands or millions legitimately versus a person who got shot or runs a gang. Becoming a successful professional isn't easy, and it takes sometimes a long and hard time to accomplish that. But it is very easy for someone to get into a fight and start a gang. (Not as easy as I make it sound but you get the point). At the end of the day, I can promise you that keeping your eyes on the real prize (which is becoming successful and a genuinely good person) will take you much further in life and experience much more better things then being a gangster. It would be easier on top of that because you will make more friends then enemies.. and don't they say a key to success is networking? How can you network when everyone you come in contact with hates you?

Music To My Ears

A lot of my friends know that I like to constantly keep updated with the newest music. Lately I haven't been downloading much but when I do, I tend to download quite a bit. People are always asking me to send them new songs so I'm just going to post up my playlists when I get the chance to. Below is this month's playlist. I can only provide the names of the songs... downloading however.. your on your own lol. (The songs in bold are the ones I really like)

All I Do Is Win (Feat. Ludacris Snoop Dogg, Rick Ross, And T-Pain) - DJ Khaled
Automatic (Feat. Teairra Mari) - Nicki Minaj
By My Side (Feat. Akon) - Nicole Scherzinger
Chase Our Love - Chris Brown
Get It All (feat. Nicki Minaj) - Sean Garrett
Get Ya Money Up (Remix) (Feat. Keyshia Cole And Nicki Mianj) - Keri Hilson
How Low (Remix) (Feat. Ciara & Pitbull) - Ludacris
I Wanna Rock (Remix) - Snoop Dogg ft Jay-Z
Inseparable (Remix)(Feat. Trey Songz) - Mariah Carey
Leave You A Message - Cassie
Little Freak (Feat. Nicki Minaj) - Usher
Million Dollar Girl (Ft. Diddy & Keri Hilson) - Trina
Miss Chocolate (Prod By Drummaboy) - Lil' Jon Feat. R. Kelly & Mario
My Chick Is Bad (Feat. Nicki Minaj) - Ludacris
Put It Down (Ft. Drake) - Bun B
Put It On My Tab - Sammie ft. Trey Songz
Put Your Hands Up (feat. Young Jeezy, Plies & Rick Ross) - DJ Khaled
Reverse Cowgirl - T-Pain ft. Young Jeezy
Roger That (Ft. Nicki Minaj & Tyga) - Lil Wayne & Young Money
Say Something - Drake Ft. Timberland
Skydiver - Cassie
So Many Girls - Usher
Unthinkable (I'm Ready) - Alicia Keys Ft. Drake
Angels Cry (Remix) - Mariah Carey Ft. Ne-Yo
Breakin Rules (Feat. Busta Rhymes) - The Game
Easy - Gucci Rocko Nicki Minaj
Hurt - Drake ft. Dirty Money
Invented Sex (Remix) (Dirty) - Trey Songz Ft Usher And Keri Hilson
Maniac (Feat. Keri Hilson, Chris Brown & D.O.E.) - Timbaland
Sex In Crazy Places (Feat. Bobby Valentino, Nicki Minaj & Trina) - Gucci Mane
Top Chef Feat. Akon - Gucci Mane
Wait (Ft. Chris Brown, The Game) - Trey Songz
We Got Hood Love (Feat. Trey Songz) - Mary J. Blige
Women Lie, Men Lie - Yo Gotti Ft. Lil Wayne
Posted - Lil Scrappy
Regret (Remix) - Letoya Feat. Missy Elliot
Scared Money Feat. Lil Wayne (Prod. Boi-1da) - Young Jeezy
Yeah Ho! (Feat. Gucci Mane And Jazze Pha) - Sean Paul
Drop The World (Feat. Eminem) - Lil Wayne
Wanna See 'Em Buss Ft. Liffy Stokes - Twista
Yesterday (Official Remix) - Toni Braxton Ft. Trey Songz

A New Year

I wish everyone who celebrates chinese new year to have a great prosperous, healthy and wealthy new year. I had a rough start for this chinese new year by getting my driver's license suspended. However it is only because a police officer has made a mistake on my speeding ticket by putting the wrong postal code on the ticket therefore when I filed my court date.. I never received any notices following it there after thus I was convicted. This will all be resolved tomorrow hopefully when I get to the ministry of transportation but not being able to drive my car this weekend sucked lol. Oh well, things happen for a reason so I can only think positively and maybe something better will come from all this. Anyways, enjoy the new years people!

Say Something..

I know this song is old but I been really liking this song. It's on repeat right now lol. I'm feeling a lot of the lyrics too so I felt like changing up a few things that would fit my life in a way. Yes I'm bored haha.



This shit was all I knew,
you and me only,
I did it all for you,
still you were lonely,
we coulda worked it out,

uhh, but i guess things change,
its funny how someone elses success brings pain,
when ya no longer involved that person has it all,
and you just stuck standing there,

But, Im gonna need you to say something baby,
say say something baby
say something baby
Im gonna need you to say something baby,
Im gonna need you to say something baby ahhh

[Timbaland]
Yeah, It Really Sucks But
ever since Ive been long gone,
I traded in my senorita for a microphone cause I'm money prone,
I hate the way we fell apart girl, its sad to see,
our lives are good but me and you we a catastrophe,
if I was unsuccessful would you be satisfied?
I need a paramedic girl, Im feeling paralyzed,
if I could choose, you will always be a friend to me,
the more money I made you acting like my enemy,
its crazyyy, I cant help it if you feel ashamed,
of the pressure with turnin you into my Diamond Babe
how can something so familiar be so strange,
closest friends get estranged when your status change,
ahh, is it my mistake, think that where I am and where you at,
and my HomeBoys Larry Loc from regent park is the only one that had my back,
we were the perfect pair, now it seems that we dont match,
is it the money, want me to give it back?

[Chorus]

[Drake]
Uhh, i am the topic of conversation, this a celebration,
lets toast to the fact that I moved out my momma basement,
to a condo apartment downtown because its all about location,
I sit and drink wine goose and watch californication of life,
you shoulda been here to kick it with me,
we coulda split this whole thing up 50/50,
but now im at the 40/40 getting bitches tipsy,
killing shit the ever so talented Mr Ripley,
how I go from being the man that you argue with,
to me and Dwayne Carter Will Nguyen putting out the hardest shit,
I should wanna go back to the one I started with,
but Im addicted to this life its gon be hard to quit,
yeah, just ask me how things are coming along,
you can tell me that you never heard none of my songs blogs,
long as you end up saying one day you plan to listen,
cos whats a star when its most important fan is missing?

(Chorus)

Superbowl XLIV Ads

Here some entertainment if your bored and missed the superbowl. Some commercials I thought we're stupid but there still were some funny and interesting ones though. Enjoy.

Getting Advice?

A lot of decisions in life sometimes require us to pause a moment and really think for a moment of the best course of action. A lot of times we turn to our friends, family, co-workers, etc for a second opinion or advice on what to do. Life can be mind blowing when you really sit down and think about how many times you've had to make a decision on something completely unpredictable that occurs. Life is unpredictable and we never can guess what's going to happen next and what to do next. Every single person in the world holds a unique life which goes in completely different experiences and different perspectives. Everyone is different.

The point is a lot of times when we turn to our colleagues for advice, we first must understand that even though what they say may sound right.. It may not be right for you. We all go through different and unique experiences and a lot of times they may sound similar but thats only because a lot of the time there are a lot of details missing from the explanation of the scenario. The advice given may have worked for that person but could possibly do the opposite for you. You cannot expect to get good advice on your career path when the person telling you is a drug dealer. You cannot expect to get good advice on your relationship from a girl/guy who is either single or dating someone who their unhappy with or cheated on. You have come this far and experienced enough to learn to make your own decisions.

I'm not saying that most advice your given is all wrong however you must use your discretion carefully when making important decisions. You are the one experiencing it and you should know what's best for you. And if you really don't know, at least turn to a person who you know has actually experienced the same thing or has accomplished what you are trying to accomplish. Don't always turn to your BESTFRIEND or OLDER SIBLING etc for the answer cause chances are, half the time they could be wrong. If YOU happen to choose the wrong decision.. don't go and turn emo and beat yourself up about it. Again we're human and we make mistakes. The point is to learn from it.

The main point of this post is for all the people who are very indecisive in life and always turning to people for advice. Then end up regretting their choice and point the blame on others. This is a really sensitive topic to explain because you really have to have gone through an experience based upon this to really understand. Remember that you are the one who is in the driver seat and know when to accelerate and brake.. and even times when you need to reverse or have to do a complete u-turn. Obviously its a corny metaphor but you get the point. lol

=)

This music video always somehow manages to put a smile back on my face everytime. lmao when i get a boat, im gona be jamming this song! haha.

Why Do I Bother?

Why do we bother to impress people who aren't worth our time. Why do we lie to ourselves to make us believe in something that really isn't there. Why do we constantly run in the same circle which only goes round and round and not forward. Why do we care about people who don't care about us. Why do we try so hard to please others when those same people do not even bother trying to please us. Why do we let ourselves get dragged along with those who are falling. Why..

RemixXx

cool.

Something Interesting..

If your still interested in knowing more about your economy, weed, politics, why things are legal, and illegal. Watch "The Union". It is a very informative documentary that may change your perspective on our society and what the media has been filling your head with.

Here is the link to the movie :

http://stagevu.com/video/zlamoujlnqsj

Yawnnn...

Just woke up. Its nice and sunny outside (a good break from the cold) and I have the weekend off from work which is marvelous. I've had a good week and there were a few bumps here and there but no complaints really. One thing about this week however is I've been having a lot of weird dreams lately. And I notice they are including people I don't usually see in my dreams or even think about at all. Sometimes I wonder if it's a sign or does it really just mean nothing at all. They say that your dreams are based upon the very last thing that you think about before you fall asleep. Who knows. I guess this is one of the mysteries in life we'll never understand for sure.

Moving on though. I recently purchased a BB gun and been shooting targets in my house. It's been a lot of fun and there are BB's probably all over the house now. Unfortunately to say.. while we were drinking and partying last night. Someone got shot in the leg. LMAO. And yes, the accident was caused by me. I was holding the gun around after I thought I shot the last bullet. I wanted to scare my friend Abby by shooting the empty gun at him. I did not aim directly at him however. It was in front of him and I pointed towards the ground. As I pulled the trigger, I was laughing and talking shit. But after the shot was fired. Abby yelled
"WTF you shot me in the leg!"
At first I thought he was joking but then I heard the bullet ricochet off in the kitchen. I thought oh fcuk. That can't be good. He pulled up his jeans and he had a small dot which started to bleed. (Keep in mind it is a copper ball bearing being shot at close range with a c.o.2 tank) Luckily it didn't pierce his jeans but it did hurt him. Good thing we were all drinking and so I assumed it really didn't hurt. MY BAD ABBY LMAO. But he reminded me that we were now even because back when we went paintballing. He shot ME in the FOOT while we were getting instructions on what NOT TO DO. lmao. Obviously the paintball wasn't as painful as the BB but getting shot in your toe with air forces on. Still hurt like a mother****. So we're even cause I did not want to get shot with the BB gun lol Plus I did it by accident and he shot me on purpose at the time. lol good times.

Do you believe in fate?

I was very shocked by a lot of the scenes captured in this video. The first couple aren't that great but it gets much better. Hope you enjoy the video.

Another 6 weeks of winter

Luckily for me, I wasn't out in the cold too much today. I like seeing the snow fall but not a big fan of the cold. Spent most of my day at work yet again lol. Surprisingly went by quite fast which was nice. Kept myself busy with re-arranging the presentation displays for watches. Today I notice a lot of more casually dressed down type of people. (Cause I do get alot of people dressed in business suits and attire, the occasional iced out thug, old lady's decked out in furs that look like a very warm blanket lmao. etc) One thing I thought about was a lot of these people weren't very wealthy people and yet to continue to purchase useless yet expensive items on themselves. Now don't get me wrong, I love to shop and buy nice clothes, gear, etc. But sometimes I wonder how much of this desire was bound to me by media, and society's influence. Did you know.. to the naked human eye you cannot tell the difference between a cubic zirconia and a diamond? Its nearly impossible unless you were trained for years as a licensed gemologist. And yet we put this inflated value on this piece of rock and tell people it's more expensive because it's more rare or whatever. Makes you wonder if it's all really worth it. Like how we've come to purchase clothing alot of times based upon brand name. Two polo shirts side by side. One has no logo and is $5-$10 (or even less!) and the other has a crocodile on it and becomes $75. Now sometimes material and quality do play their part, but we all know that's not the case most of the time. Then the worse part I realized is a lot of us taken a lot of the things we buy or obtain in life for granted. We're always so busy running around like time is short and continue to strive for more things we probably don't need. But that's not the main point of this. The main point is as I grow older and see my friends and families around me. I see that a lot of us go through life forgetting to appreciate all the little things or even sometimes the big things we have gotten and things we have desired. If you stop and think for a minute, I'm sure if you just take a look around your room, you will see things that you used to want so badly.. and now it just sits on the drawer collecting dust. And when it comes time to giving it away or throwing it out.. we feel down because yu never know what yu have until its gone. I learned this valuable lesson a lot of times and I'm nowhere near perfect because I still don't always follow my own advice. But to be able to remind myself from time to time about these life lessons. The more I will conform to it. Life is valuable and its okay to want better things and try to achieve success and wealth. But in order for us to see more of our desires, we sometimes need to stop and give thanks and appreciation for all the other wanted things that we have worked so hard for to have today. Maybe it's that new computer or laptop you got. maybe its a new car. maybe its that new outfit you got. a new cell phone. whatever. by thinking about these desired items we've obtained, feels good. it puts you in a very positive emotional state which will pave the way to more of what you want. but that still doesn't go without saying that yu don't have to earn it still lol. if yu can work hard and enjoy life.. life will give you what you ask for. no exceptions.